[Life] Cutting The Heart Strings

I personally hate this, I mean it seems like our family never seems to get a break here and there, like life is nothing but turns and disasters. What did she do? All she does is live on this planet, I'm so sick of this. Many say "you can't blame god for what happens here and there in life" well then who do I blame exactly? Personally I have lost my faith in religion as it seems like there is a personal vendetta against me and my family.

We recently lost Tiffany a member of our family for years and now I'm about to loose another. My cat Mae,we just found out that she has Lymphoma Cancer, we haven't a clue how long she has to live but I want to keep her as pain free as possible. It seems like every time we make a turn something else has to happen, and I hate it. I mean what did she ever do to anyone, all she does is live here with us! The only faith I have is in my family, if people believe that to be blasphemous then so be it, none of you matter to me as your just mire numbers and nothing more to me. I haven't the belief in my religion anymore after this.

*I'm not demeaning the public, just the nay-sayers that will go against my words here in the sake of defending religion. I haven't a thing against religion I'm just saying I no longer have the belief's in it as much as I did before. I do want to make it clear that I do not hate people nor anyone who believes in their religion, I'm just saying that I have lost my faith and do not feel after all that has happened in the last few years that anyone like "god" would allow such things to happen to people that haven't done a thing wrong but just live. It's one thing if you do something to me as I can recover but when you attack something so small and innocent like a Dog or Cat that can't do a thing to stop it, I think it's just sadistic and for what? You have a beef with me, you deal with me. Don't bring my family "home" because you have an issue with me, be a real being and deal with the problem head on instead of hiding in the clouds and cutting the heart strings of families. My Mother had asked me if I'm going to believe in the Devil now as I kept making remarks about my disbelief, I told her "at this point anything would be better right now that what I do already, to me god's the real Devil" I know I didn't mean that but I'm just tired of having to get upset every day because someone won't let our little family live in peace. It's just the three of us, why do you need to keep taking away anyone who lives here, what sick kick is he getting from this?